I legitimately feel like I'm navigating my early 20's with friends on some tv show. 

It's funny that a friend, who is ironically not a friend anymore, once said to me that people we meet once or for a period of time will appear back in our lives if they are meant to. I was talking to her about how I've met a lot of people who I've gotten along with so well, for example on placement, spent hours everyday with them to have to abruptly leave. Maybe it's the 80 year old sentimental elderly person in me that makes me sad that I lose these people, especially when we could easily be good friends. Is this what adulthood is?!

I think I'm making a big mistake somewhere. 

Feeling strangely sentimental tonight.

You know how you always make a promise to yourself to try harder every year after a horrible exam period so that the next exam period won't be horrible?

WHY DON'T I KEEP THOSE PROMISES TO MYSELF?!

I have a lot of amusement at the fact that everyone has the same story of the first day of being left here in Wagga. Every single story so far has been them sitting in their room, either crying or trying not to cry because they felt lonely with no friends in a strange new place. It's funny to think that there were people feeling miserable and alone, all at the exact same time, believing that it was only them. 

So instead of going out last night to celebrate passing my exam, the housemates and I ended up buying dessert and fries from McDonald's, came home and ate that, opened bottles of Midori and Gin and watched 'I shouldn't be alive' on late night tv. Then I fell asleep early. It was quite a different scenario I had in my head about going 'white girl crazy' (Alannah's term, not mine) if I passed my exam. It kind of made me realise how we're all getting a bit old for that kind of scene, even though I can barely say that I was ever part of it in the first place. It's just a bit disappointing that I'm never quite into having a crazy night, stemming from either the age thing or a personality thing. I want to have something I can pinpoint when I'm middle-aged, and say that 'at least I had fun in my youth' kind of thing.