Shit, it's been four months since I've updated. Not that I've gotten a life or nothing, quite the opposite. No shit to complain about honestly. Anyway, I've got shit to complain about now:
I don't know whether it's because it's exams and I'm stressed, or I'm socially retarded or that they annoy me, but there is this group of first year girls who have started becoming friends with my friends. I've seen them so often now but I've never had the urge to talk to them, or even be mildly interested in being friendly. They're slowly befriending everyone I know here, and I'm there silently yelling in my head for them to please just go away. They're from Sydney doing Oral Health, and I just cannot for the life of me be bothered. I almost feel like I've reached a friend quota in my life right now. That I really cannot make an effort to make any more friends. I think it's because I can sense they're not going to be worth it, seeing as they're the typical giggly eighteen year olds fresh from high school.
Or maybe somewhere deep down I envy them? That's stupid, right? They're so happy and bubbly and it reminds me of what my friends and I used to be in first year. NOW WE ARE BROKEN. Those girls dress up all the time, and are making all the friends they can. I want to yell at them I USED TO BE LIKE YOU, BUT LOOK AT ME NOOOOWWW. LOOK INTO YOUR FUTURE OF UNWASHED HAIR AND WEARING TIGHTS AS PANTS EVERY SINGLE DAAAAYYY TO THE LIBRARY. They still have that fresh-faced look about them, with that glint of HOPE in their eyes. The rest of us are so exhausted and jaded now, and it's really not an exaggeration.
I think this kind of ties into the fact that I'm starting to feel really old, seeing these first years. I was still kind of used to being the naive and one of the young ones, ignoring that I'm actually in fourth year soon. Also, this whole 'cbf' thing with the first years has kind of made me look like a complete bitch to them I think. BUT I CAN'T BE FUCKED.
I can rant about that all day and shizz, but it's getting too long and I want to mention that there's a party on at our house this Tuesday. Sheenal and I decided that it was going to be invite only and that we'd invite really specific people. We also hid the guestlist on Facebook just because, and it's turning out to be about 30 people coming. But now I'm starting to feel like a complete bitch because it's on the day everyone will want to go out and because we've invited specific people from groups, and ignored (lol) people we don't like, so they won't have friends to hang out with. I blame Sheenal. She specifically wanted to have this party to spite someone she absolutely hates. So she started spreading that we were going to have a party and suddenly people started asking me whether they were invited to a party that Sheenal and I had only discussed while procrastinating during study. There is way too much pressure on us to have the bestest most awesome party ever. Coincidentally, there are two other parties on that afternoon. Thanh is COINCIDENTALLY having her birthday party that night with supposedly 40 people. There is also an after exams party for Pharmacy kids, which would've been kind of cool.
Okay I should stop ranting. But I'm only ranting cause I don't want to sleep. And wake up early. And study. Peace out.
I don't know whether it's because it's exams and I'm stressed, or I'm socially retarded or that they annoy me, but there is this group of first year girls who have started becoming friends with my friends. I've seen them so often now but I've never had the urge to talk to them, or even be mildly interested in being friendly. They're slowly befriending everyone I know here, and I'm there silently yelling in my head for them to please just go away. They're from Sydney doing Oral Health, and I just cannot for the life of me be bothered. I almost feel like I've reached a friend quota in my life right now. That I really cannot make an effort to make any more friends. I think it's because I can sense they're not going to be worth it, seeing as they're the typical giggly eighteen year olds fresh from high school.
Or maybe somewhere deep down I envy them? That's stupid, right? They're so happy and bubbly and it reminds me of what my friends and I used to be in first year. NOW WE ARE BROKEN. Those girls dress up all the time, and are making all the friends they can. I want to yell at them I USED TO BE LIKE YOU, BUT LOOK AT ME NOOOOWWW. LOOK INTO YOUR FUTURE OF UNWASHED HAIR AND WEARING TIGHTS AS PANTS EVERY SINGLE DAAAAYYY TO THE LIBRARY. They still have that fresh-faced look about them, with that glint of HOPE in their eyes. The rest of us are so exhausted and jaded now, and it's really not an exaggeration.
I think this kind of ties into the fact that I'm starting to feel really old, seeing these first years. I was still kind of used to being the naive and one of the young ones, ignoring that I'm actually in fourth year soon. Also, this whole 'cbf' thing with the first years has kind of made me look like a complete bitch to them I think. BUT I CAN'T BE FUCKED.
I can rant about that all day and shizz, but it's getting too long and I want to mention that there's a party on at our house this Tuesday. Sheenal and I decided that it was going to be invite only and that we'd invite really specific people. We also hid the guestlist on Facebook just because, and it's turning out to be about 30 people coming. But now I'm starting to feel like a complete bitch because it's on the day everyone will want to go out and because we've invited specific people from groups, and ignored (lol) people we don't like, so they won't have friends to hang out with. I blame Sheenal. She specifically wanted to have this party to spite someone she absolutely hates. So she started spreading that we were going to have a party and suddenly people started asking me whether they were invited to a party that Sheenal and I had only discussed while procrastinating during study. There is way too much pressure on us to have the bestest most awesome party ever. Coincidentally, there are two other parties on that afternoon. Thanh is COINCIDENTALLY having her birthday party that night with supposedly 40 people. There is also an after exams party for Pharmacy kids, which would've been kind of cool.
Okay I should stop ranting. But I'm only ranting cause I don't want to sleep. And wake up early. And study. Peace out.
